Sam Ock - Grey

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released June 4, 2015

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Our passion is to engage culture to nourish souls and renew lives for Christ through music.

This hope is rooted in the Gospel message that, "God so loved the world, He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, shall not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16)
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Track Name: Never Ending
[Chorus]
Live, hope and pray
for my joy will be everlasting
I will live another day
for I have neverending love

[V1]
so I'll keep my eyes on the way
and shut up my tongue from sin
put a muzzle on my bad thoughts
in the dark places I've been
but my anguish increases
as I lay silent and still
the fire, it burns within me
I speak with my tongue, "show me your will!"
are we all caught in illusion,
just living life to and fro?
building the castles and riches
but when you die, where will they all go?
everyday a part of me is dying
is it flesh or the life within?
I'm livin' in indifference,
indebted into dividends of death
but I'm payed for already, so I'll try to...

[Chorus]

[V2]
I am learning to let go
of all the things that
poison me and take my life away
I'm longing for an end
to all the things that
bend and break my sanity and faith

The crucible and cleansing flame
and the pain in washing all these filthy stains
I pray my heart will last and stay
I'll trust in you another day

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I believe I am more than a conquerer
through the One who loved me first
no death, no life, no emotion
can ever take away what I'm worth (x2)

The crucible and cleansing flame
and the pain in washing all these filthy stains
I pray my heart will last and stay
I'll trust in you another day

[Chorus]
Track Name: What Have I Done
[Chorus]
Oh God, what have I done
Oh God, what have I done
Have I ruined everything again?

Oh God, what have I done
Oh God, what have I done
Will I make it to the very end?

[V1]
I am crushed to the point of death
My fading love, do I have any left?
Will I ever believe in you..
Will perfect love ever be my truth?
Will You be my hope? Will You be my hope?

[Chorus]

[V2]
Get ‘em away and out of my head
the toxic, the poison is killing me dead
I’m red, burned up and burnt out instead
of a life of joy, my mind’s a death bed
many days I’ve bled, my thoughts black and blue
I’ve taken the roads, what am I supposed to do
when everything around tells me what is true
and yet I’ve tried it all and still I don’t feel new, shoot…
I can’t trust my own heart
‘cause it keeps feeding me lies
I’m scared to ask for help
and I’m scared to even just try
I raise the white flag high, even if I lash out, can you help me fight?
Hear the desperate whispers as I lay crying…
Please help me hope through the night, please…
I want to hope through the night

[Bridge]
You redeem, You restore, and You say that I’m adored
I could never imagine this…
Every castle will fall, all my flesh with pass away
Is there any love like this?

[Chorus]
Track Name: Near
[V1]
I say the opposite thing, I want to be assured
I want to know that love is greater far than empty words
My cynicism many times irrational, absurd
Pride it tells me that I’m further gone than any word
I have the gall, yes I think I really have the nerve
To challenge unconditional love to be a verb
Many things I observe clash with what I heard
The black and white makes my insides grey, blurred…

I am much less faithful than you think I am
my heart’s palate tastes bitterness and loves bland
need to water myself, ‘cause I’m dry land
i want to know but i don’t really want to understand…

but i’ve come to know one thing
to be alone, it could be my life’s ending
so in all I don’t know, God I need You, I need You to keep me close…

[Chorus]
I’ll push away
but I really want You to stay
can You be the strength of my faith?
I need You to keep me close…

[V2]
do you think I’m a fool
‘cause I deserve that
I’m just a broken tool
devoid of functionality
why can’t You be my first resort
why must You be my last resort…

I am forgiven and I don’t deserve that…
I have the remedy and didn’t even do a thing..
I’m making You my only choice
I’m making You my only choice

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I am much less faithful than you think I am
my heart’s palate tastes bitterness and loves bland
need to water myself, ‘cause I’m dry land
i want to know but i don’t really want to understand…

but i’ve come to know one thing
to be alone, it could be my life’s ending
so in all I don’t know, God I need You, I need You to keep me close…

[Chorus]
Track Name: Made For More
[V1]
will this ever get any better
will this ever stop killing all my joy
maybe it’d be best if I don’t stay…

every single time, it’s a battle
every single thought is a step of faith
God, I hope to see the light of day

[Chorus]
I am made for more
than the world has got me for
I am made for more than this (x2)

[V2]
I want to trust that I’ve got a good thing
even if I don’t deserve it
it’s humility I guess, to divorce myself from the
feelings of guilt, but I’m nervous
what if it all just burns?
‘cause it seems the norm with all I’m concerned with
take my pride and let it die
I want to live life and feel like I’m worth it
but it doesn’t seem worth it
all the hassle and stress
i don’t got anything to offer
feel more mediocre than the rest
and is this another test? to see the outpour
of where this heart rests?
“I don’t know” is my favorite phrase,
but I’m trusting the song of serenity and grace to say…

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
where’s my peace
my lungs won’t let me breathe
and all the broken whispers seem to stay

incomplete
my heart is in defeat
I want to need, I want to hope and pray…

[Chorus]
Track Name: All (More ll)
[V1]
I am worthless
I am worthless
I am worthless to me
I feel nothing
I feel nothing
I feel nothing in me

[Pre-Chorus]
But I see the blood
and I see the sweat
and I see the tears poured out for me
and it makes me want to change
and it makes me want to change

and I see Your blood
and I see Your sweat
and I see Your tears poured out for me
and it makes me want to change
and it makes me want to change

[Chorus]
So maybe I am more
than what my feelings tell me
and maybe I’m beloved after all

and though I am afraid
of everything I’m doing
I’m asking you to help me give it all
my all..

[V2]
I’m a failure
I am poison
I have stained everything
Given up now
I can’t trust in
anybody, even me

[PC]

[Chorus]
Track Name: Out of My Head
[V1]
what is this feeling I’m feeling
what is this tranquility?
what is this feeling I’m feeling
I’m pretty sure it’s not peace…
I feel a bit disconcerted
I feel insecurity
so where do I go, what do I do,
get it all out of my head!

[Chorus]
I will hope in the light
I’m not giving up this fight
I am reaching out for love with all my might
let me hope in the light
even if it takes my life
I will raise the banner up
with all my might

[V2]
I am the one who has made this affliction
and I am under the rod of Your wrath
brought into darkness, lost all my vision
driven to the edge of reality, mad
I feel walled up in my own asylum
I feel the rust of the chains on my skin
these hidden beasts beating me into submission
addiction and lusts of my flesh draw me in
I know I need to reach out, but I don’t want to
I need community, love in my life
the steadfast type of care that never ceases
and new mercies in the dawn of new light
I want to believe, and I don’t want to be this way
I’m sick and tired of my self-absorbed dread
so where do I go, what do I do, get it all out of my head!

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
all these emotions are crippling
all the lies swim in my head
drowning my life in this madness
even no rest in my bed
I know I’m being dramatic
I know I’m hopelessly lost
so I want to go, and I want to do…
get it all out of my head!

[Chorus]
Track Name: Long
[V1]
open my eyes and see the messy aftermath
I’m a soldier fighting where truth and heart clash
feel like I’ve been poured out, time and time again
I’m weary and discouraged, maybe it will never end
if I’m honest, I would climb into this foxhole
I know that I’m a coward longing for the comfortable
I lost my helmet in the dirt a long time ago
my gun is rusted and I’m all out of ammo

God, get me out of here...man, I’m desperate
just another calm before another storm, I’m sure of it
and why do I feel like the worst soldier in the world
undeserved in every way of any medal or pearl
my barricade destroyed, I’m so vulnerable
I’m light-headed, maybe ‘cause I’m paralyzed with fear
can you find me, ‘cause I’m buried underneath the rubble
I just really want to hear..

[Chorus]
It won’t be long
won’t be long
It won’t be long ‘til your time will come
It won’t be long
won’t be long
It won’t be long until your time will come

[V2]
a time to be born and also a time to die
a time to plant and a time to harvest what’s inside
a time to break it down, and a time to build it up
a time to weep, and a time you couldn’t laugh enough
a time to stay close, and times of isolation
a time to speak, and a time of silence, being patient
a time to seek out, and a time to lose it all
a time to keep, and times to cast away, watch ‘em fall
a time to tear, and a time to suture up again
a time where feelings kill, and times for healing them
a time for war and a time for peace to settle in
a time to love, and a time to hate everything
from dust I came, and to dust I surely will return
there’s something deep, something that makes my heart yearn
I believe the God of love, and it’s Him I fear
in every single season of my year, I know it won’t be long

[Chorus]
Track Name: Crown feat J. Han and Ruth Cho
[Chorus - Ruth Cho]
don’t you...don’t you worry ‘bout a thing
and any turn that life will bring
‘cause you’re on the road of gold
and your character will mold
into a crown

[V1 - J.Han]
I’m used to being laughed at
petrified to pull my kimchi from my backpack
so I settled for mystery meat and flapjacks
wanting to fit in, I underachieved in math class
huh? adolescent insecurities
shiny placard on the interstate -- nothing new
man, I thought I drove past that at 22
but surely it followed me, I see it from my rearview
man, I just wanted a simple life
Never asked to touch lives or touch the mic
I was told that I was wielding a katana so I had to quit
holding it just as a butter knife, right?
complications. how much longer can I hold on?
these character assassinations have been prolonged
Tired of defending my vocation with a prologue
Can’t take the heat; I want to leave, I need just to cool off

[Chorus]

[V2]
I don’t really know why I’m this way
I don’t know why I am not okay
paper thin, the state of all my parts
fold and rip me up, and can you see my scars

it’s taken me a long time to put ‘em up
all the walls coverin’ the true me, yup
so the me that is currently in front of you
a projection, hidden from the true blue
but I want to get better
so I’m trying to write down all my true letters
vulnerable to even more pain
but I’m trying to have faith, that to die is gain, so…

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
‘cause I want to get stronger
and I want to get better
and I want to go further
I want to be free from the fetters

so this is my plea
I’m trying to find a way to new me
dying to my own self
maybe that’s good for my health, so..

[Chorus]
Track Name: Possible feat Ruth Cho
[Chorus]
I can change if You want me to
I can change if I trust in You
‘cause I know all these things are possible with You
I will change if You want me to
I will change ‘cause I trust in You
and I know anything is possible with You

[V1]
I remember, tears flowing, I would ask God,
“if this is how You made me, how can I be flawed?
I don’t remember asking You that I would be this way
do You even listen to my heart when I pray?”
if it’s so wrong, why does it feel good?
the voices tell me that I’m simply misunderstood
being my way, versus being what I should
doing what You say is right, versus what I really would
I feel the laws of the universe in my veins
pumping white and black oxygen to my brain
breathin’ life with a hidden undertone of shame
I feel the wickedness trying to evict Your holy reign
so even if it feels natural, impossible
I know true inspiration is in the improbable
so I trust that I might be wrong
and true life is what I really long for

[Chorus]

[V2]
and I know that I am not the only one
the war within my chest leaves me undone
maybe I am far too gone to change

so look at all my mess and my debris
I’m asking that You help me, honestly
‘cause I don’t want my love to waste away

[Chorus]
Track Name: Got a Love
[V1]
I believe that there’s no condemnation
I believe that I have been set free
I’m a son living for the Kingdom
all my life, I’ll see the glory come

and I’ll have faith when I have need
for my good is that You are with me

[Chorus]
I got a love that will never go away
I got a love and it’s always here to stay
no death, no life
can move me from Your sight
You love will shine all the while
I’ve got Your love that will never go away
and I’ve got Your love and it’s always here to stay

[V2]
what? no I’m not ashamed
how could I be with a love so insane?
given to me, even with all my shame
it really don’t make sense in my brain, mayn
man, life is hard
strugglin’ from dawn ‘til you see the night stars
livin’ in a “tough-get-going”-type of world
values twisted, a whirlwinds swirl
so I say to all that
Jesus, Jesus, He got my back
matter of fact, He got my front too
givin’ me strength ‘til the day is through, true…
so I know love is this
pourin’ out every day, hit or miss
so when the going gets tough
I put on a smile and say, “I got a love!”

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
shake it off, go on ahead
do a little boogie to the rhythm in your head
shake it off, go on ahead
do a little boogie to the rhythm instead

[Chorus]
Track Name: Make Me Smile
[V1]
you ask me how I’m doing but you know
I feel a little down, but my face don’t show
I lie to you, tell you everything’s fine
but you look for my heart, you read between the lines
and you say so many right things
the smile on your face, it kind of makes me want to sing
you are the sun when my heart is blue
my dear friend, I thank you, I thank you, I thank you

[Chorus]
you pick me up everyday
when life gets me down
you’re by my side and stay
even if it’s only for a while
you will always make me smile

[V2 - J. Han]
let me hear you say "oh yeah!"
let me go and hit my two step
let me hear you say "oh yeah!"
let me go and hit my two step
even when I’m dead broke
got hope and I’m still counting my gold
even with dead bones
I'll thrive, breathe life into my cold soul
let me hear you say "oh yeah!"
Can't help but hit my two step
let me hear you say "oh yeah!"
Can't help but hit my two step
even when I’m dead tired
I rise because His yoke is so light
even when I’m done fighting
I rest and forget about the whole plight

[Chorus]